This summer I have had the opportunity to nanny for two girls. One is a preteen and the other is a young teenager and I can honestly say they are so much fun! We get to paint our nails together, watch silly movies, stay up at night telling life stories, and many other fun activities. On the drive back from taking one of the girls to their drama camp this morning, I was thinking about my biggest goal for this summer. It could be to make sure the girls have the best summer ever (which is definitely a good goal), but I want more than that.
I want the girls to see Christ in my life. They are both at such an impressionable age, I don’t want to take this opportunity of spending quality time with them for granted. I want to be an example of a young woman who loves the Lord with her whole heart.
Looking back over the time I’ve already spent here, I can’t confidently say I’ve done that. In most situations, I try to make much of myself – not of my Savior. I want the girls to have fun with me and like me, but I think I’ve let that take the place of my desire for the girls to look at me and love Jesus more.
How often in life do we do this? I know that I do this very often. In every circumstance we have the choice to point to Jesus or ourselves. As I mentioned in an earlier post, I want people to accept me, so I often choose to point to myself. Whether that be the music I listen to, the jokes I make, or the movies I watch, I want to be accepted.
And then it hit me. Every one of those times I choose to make much of myself is a reflection of the Savior I worship.
I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
When I gave my life to Christ, I literally gave my life to Him. The choices I make are no longer just reflecting my character, but also the character of my Lord and Savior. Putting aside what other people are thinking of me, what are people thinking about Jesus when they look at my life?
That’s heavy. I’m so thankful (yet again) for the abundant grace offered to me through the blood of Christ! I mess up every single day and He still loves me. It’s not a burden to carry the image of Jesus, but it also shouldn’t be taken lightly. It’s a privilege. As Christ followers, we have the opportunity to live a life reflecting our King and Savior! Wow.
So back to my summer goal. I don’t want to continue making much of myself in front of these girls. I want to make much of Jesus Christ. I want them to see my actions and decisions, not to see myself, but to see my heart behind making them. I want them to look at me and see a Savior who loves them.
Therefore be imitators of God, as beloved children. And walk in love, as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us, a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.